I wanted it to go back to how it used to be.I struggled with the new reality that was about to come.I was going to lose my friend forever because honestly,things had changed so much and I didn’t think they would go back to how they used to be.
I prayed to God to soften my heart.I listened to Matthew West’s song on forgiveness.Over and over,it played in my head.
“Let it go and be amazed by what you see through eyes of grace.There is no end to what it’s power can do.”
Then one day I woke up and made the same prayer.This was weeks later I believe.I completely let it go and I forgave her.I may not forget it but that doesn’t matter.I am human and would probably have said even worse things.There was no point in holding it against her.
Things went back to being normal.We laughed together again.We talked about nothings’ and for the first time i felt free and a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.I remembered the many prayers that God didn’t and hadn’t answered.But he chose to answer this.Why?
Looking back,she has had my back through my very highs and lows.On days that I wanted to cry,she recharged her phone credit and listened to me cry and pour my heart out.She has been there to encourage me when I thought I didn’t have a purpose.She has walked with me through my mistakes and told me realities I would never bring myself to see.She believes in my potential to create beautiful things through art and music.She has been my biggest supporter when anxiety overwhelms me.She is literally my guardian angel.
God knew I couldn’t lose her.So he did what he does best😊.
He chose this prayer🥰.